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[chuckro]

I spend so much of my life compartmentalizing the things I like because they're not the normal things other people like, and hiding them away or apologizing profusely for them before I get to the tiny crumb that might be ever-so-slightly redeemable to polite society.

("Hey, I like this thing, but don't worry, I'll spend twenty minutes telling you why it's terrible so you can pretend that I think Goodthink and I'm allowed to interact with you.")

And it occurs to me that the things I seem to think are important in my life don't always line up with everyone else's opinions, and it is Right and Good that they don't care if something matters to me, because it isn't "normal".

And I'm hiding this by posting it to the social media no-one reads.

Comments

[ivyfic]

DW/LJ is the hole in the internet people scream into.

[fairest]

I feel like I spent college embracing these weird things about myself, and then in Grownup Adulthood they had to go back undercover, and I've been grumpy about it ever since. :P

[elissali11]

ditto that. went to college, found out there were other people like me, in quantity. and now that we all had to go get jobs and families and scatter everywhere, we're isolated again.

[chuckro]

Maybe it's just bad brains, but I'm having this problem with "geeky" people too.

[elissali11]

sadface. Intersecionality biting you maybe?

*hugs*

[fairest]

It's a shame, because the not-"normal" stuff we think and like and do is a hundred times more real and interesting than the rest of it.

Love love.

[elissali11]

I'm reading it.

Feeling similarly, too. I've been reading a lot recently about allyship and privilege, and I have a lot of privilege, but what I'm not noting is the ways in which I am not normative, and not noticing myself doing some of the same labor of performing 'typical' (or at least *not* performing my non-normative-ness), just as many people of color, queer folks, etc describe doing. You know, intersectionality. I'm very normative in some ways. But really not in a lot of other ways.